HIM LIVING INSIDE

There are times when just walking out the door to face the world seems like the hardest thing I have ever done. This last Monday morning was like that for me. It seemed impossible that anything could make me okay. I got out the door and got into my car to go to work with heaviness all over me. It was then that I got clear in my focus because I remembered there is a deep reservior inside of me where my Lord lives. I can go hide in there with Him and face the world together, but first I have to quit looking at my circumstances, quit putting any attention on anything else but the reality that He is living inside of me. The more I look at my day or what I have to do, the less strength that I have, but when I turn my awareness to Him living inside of me and off of what could be out there waiting for me, everything clears up and my strength returns. He is deep inside me and I can stop and turn my attention there and stay connected with Him all through my day. Him and me together.

This is how I go from walking like my feet are stuck in the mud to having peace inside, a clear mind and strength. I have to live from the inside out. It doesn't work for me any other way. I can deal with anything I have to if my attention stays on the reality that He is inside of me doing it with me. My conversation with Him is not in my mind, it is in the deep part of me. The deep reservior. We share communion together all day long. When I stopped looking outward for Him, and just turned my attention to Him deep inside me, and just rested there, then everything changed for me. 

The Lord has been so faithful to me for all of my walk with Him. Even when I couldn't see it or understand it at the time, He was doing it. He brought me through so many things that could have taken me out. Before I learned how to abide with Him every moment inside, He still never left me. I wasn't aware of it but He was still there. Living in the awareness of Him is what changed me, but it didn't put Him there. He was already there waiting for me to notice. 

My walk with God has had many ditches. It has not been a straight path for me. No matter how many crooked paths I took, He always was there taking care of me. When I had no awareness that He was taking care of me, He lead me back to the straight path. 

I found the awareness of Him by accident. I had so much anxiety going on that I could not function. I learned that I could not let myself think at all about anything in the future or the past. I had to stay in the moment and get in touch with the feeling that I had right then. In doing that I found Him in there waiting for me to be with Him. 

I learned that striving was in my head. I could be physically still but the striving was battling in my mind all the time. That is all the head/mind area. i realized that I don't have to live in that place. I could live in the hiding place with Him instead. I just have to stop any of the thoughts of striving to be or do. I see a big stop sign in front of me, "Stop" because if I start looking at the future or dwelling in the past I get lost. I have to stop and just dive into my hiding place with Him inside. Together we can be or do everything that needs to be done in my day. I can love and I can give. I can do and I can be because it is Him doing it through and with me. 

There is no striving to enter in. He has already done what is needed to enter into us. All we have to do is recognize that He is there. Gaze at His wonder by turning our attention to Him there is the deep reservior of us. 

You can practice by putting on your favorite worship song. Picture a big easy chair inside of you with Jesus reclining in it. See yourself go and recline with Him in there. Then feel the reality of it because it is real. It is pure reality. Feel it in your gut. If you start to think that you can't, you won't be able to feel it. Just tell yourself that you can! 

Imagining can be a peaceful scene, but the real feeling in the gut, the reality of that scene is what we are looking for. If it is only in your imagination then we can't live there in that state and get anything done. What we want is to feel Him in there. We can then still have that reality and go into our day and accomplish what we need to and be focused on what we need to do. The more I feel His presence inside of me, the better I am at focusing on my work, my life, my day! The more I stay in my hiding place with Him, the more productive that I am. 

Find all the scriptures about Him living in us and read them. Read Psalm 46:10: Be still and know that I am God. Then sit still and watch your belly go up and down breathing and know that He is in your breath. Feel Him there. Be still and know that He is God! Get used to feeling Him there inside of you. Get used to turning your attention to Him inside, instead of outside to the events of the world. He is in the deep reservior of you and me! He is all around us! He is God and we are not! 

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